HELLO SUNSHINE!

yuhuu, i’m getting closer to the day i’m home. i’ll be home for christmas! yippie. anyway, talking about hometown, the questions like “where do you come from?” or “where is your hometown” often get me confused. how can i not?! well let me share my historical background.. and it will be clear why i’m saying so..

i’m Batak. i bring “Siahaan” as my last name and i’m so proud of it! hehehe. but if you think i lived in Medan for a long time, you are totally wrong. i was born in Jakarta. and let say i stayed there for about six years because then my parents took the whole family moved to Manado due to my father’s job. There in Manado i spent my childhood life. about six years later i graduated from elementary school in Manado. And then we moved again to Magelang, a very small yet so calm town in Central Java, lies between Semarang and Yogyakarta. i had my geeky-embarrassing era as a junior high school student in Magelang. 3 years passed by, we moved again to Semarang, the capital of Central Java, stayed there for only 3 years! because right after i graduated from the senior high school, i moved to Bandung due to the pursuit of university *yes, ITB!* and my parents and little brother are still moving from one city and another. After Semarang, they moved to Medan *back to nature hihihi*. so we’ve been apart since that point. i only visit Medan for special occasions, and it’s not that often either. usually we gather in Jakarta in holiday season, considering the plane’s ticket price too! hahahaaa. but now, fortunately, my parents and little brother move to Jakarta. it means that we’ll have lots of chances to meet each other! However, my parents built a house in Semarang cos they had decided to spend their time after retirement there, and it’s the only house we have actually. though they are now managing to build another in Jakarta. so i often answered Semarang when people asked about where i came from just because i have no idea! yeah, it’s weird.

yeah, that’s my amazing moving-out experience. FYI, my father works for the civil electricity company. that’s the only reason why we moved a lot! hehe. based on those facts, i don’t really have a certain destination for christmas or any holidays. yes, i’m confused. hhehee. after having those complicated-moving eras, i consider my hometown is where my family belongs to. it can be anywhere as long as i have them along with me. ehehe. as i’m still single (not married yet), family refers to my parents, my sister and my brother. and surprisingly, those travelling and moving experiences turn me to be a person who is very passionate about travelling. i want to see this world, i want to go here and there and everywhere! hehee. and yes, it will be my whole life achievements. i wish He, upstairs, is listening

now one question’s left. where’s my next destination?! “oh God, please make it there” hihihi. amen!

my friendster account was being hacked. it has happened 2 weeks ago actually but i always forgot to post it here.

well, the hacker asked me to contact him if i wanted to get it back! but instead, my boyfriend preferred to report this case to friendster administration. now, they’ve closed my account for a while. it will remain closed until i send the things they need to proceed it, such as : photo, ID license, etc. the process will take about a month and voila i’ll get it back. however, up to this time i still don’t manage sending them those things. too lazy to do it. hehe.

i’m thinking to just close my friendster account. i can just make the new one, but i won’t cos i have lost my appetite indeed. and facebook is somehow more interesting. hehehe. huah, i hate you hackers. i don’t even have any businesses with you! and you did this bloody hacking thing to me! haaahh. damn you!

haiii. i’m sooo happy. i got some memorable gifts at my a-day-ago-birthday. hahahaha. well, let’s see

1. a vacuum cleaner set from my lovely mom! she knows well i’m not good at cleaning room and sort of things. so this is kinda shortcut to solve my big problems. hihihi.
2. a bag from my gorgeous dad! this is actually based on my request. i change my mind in a sudden from shoes to bag! hahaha.
3. nintendo wii from my little brother!!! this amused me a lot actually. of course he didn’t buy the new one for me. but he gave me his own because he prefered playing playstation 3 to wii lately. so he decided to let me and my sister use it in Bandung. and he told me that it’s a gift to my birthday. this is actually awkward. because he’s usually mean when it comes to his game collections thingy. therefore i told you that it is amusing! jeez, no one defeat him! hahaha. thank you, muel. you’re so kind. love you love you.
4. my sister : later. still in progress, she said. hihihi.
5. my boyfriend : later. i’ll choose the gift my own. and we’re going to jakarta this saturday for this mission. hihihihi.

UPDATE :

i get a very cute pyjama from my cute sister hahaha. and a beautiful watch (as i requested) from my lovely boyfriend. hihihihi.

i wish this day lasts forever. huahahahahahahaha. but actually i do believe that everyday is a gift, isn’t it?! sooo let us be happy syalalalala.

haiii. i’m officially 22 now! hihihi. ain’t a kid anymore huh. my parents will come tonight to celebrate my birthday! thank you mom and dad

hmm, many people wish me happy birthday and most of them pray for me to graduate sooner. hihihi. thanks friends. it means a lot actually. i need this graduation to come as soon as possible! hehehe. i’ll just try my best. and God will do the rest. hihi.

well, i thank God for the most. thank for His never ending blessings. my life has been so perfect eversince i was born. at least for me. He gave me everything i need. health, education, great family, wonderful boyfriend, nice friends, problems, etc that i can’t even mention. hihi. and all i can say is that i’m so blessed though sometimes i ignore His will. oh i love You. i will struggle to be Your good kid till the end of my life

so here comes make a wish time. well, nothing is too much. i just wish that He leads and blesses every single steps of my life as before. and i wish for a better me in all the way to make them whom i love proud. hihi. i hope i can be something to many people. hehehe. yes, as simple as that!

cheers, hannasyalala.

ntah kenapa ya “mapan” tuh salah satu kata yang seriiinnggg bangeett saya jumpai belakangan ini. ketemu sodara-sodara, kata “mapan” ini muncul. ngobrol ama temen lama eh tiba-tiba ngebahas soal “mapan” ini. eeehhh, di angkot juga ketemu ama kata ini (nguping pembicaraan orang maksudnya) hihihihhi.

saya jadi tergelitik (huek bahasanya) untuk berpendapat. hmm, mapan ya? hmm, menurut saya sebenarnya orang sudah bisa dikatakan mapan kalo sudah bisa memenuhi kebutuhan diri sendiri dan keluarga (kalo sudah berkeluarga). sudah mencari uang sendiri dan tidak dibiayai oleh orangtua lagi. mencukupkan diri sama penghasilan sendiri gituuu, tidak berkekurangan lah pokoknya. itulah mapan.

nah lalu, di atas mapan ada hidup enak. hahahaha. punya pekerjaan tetap, rumah sendiri walaupun sederhana, bisa makan 4 sehat 5 sempurna setiap harinya, kebutuhan sehari-hari terpenuhi, anak-anak bisa sekolah, bisa rekreasi dan bersenang-senang seminggu ato 2 minggu sekali, beli baju sepatu, bisa ke dokter muka dan ke salon. hahahahaha. jadi nglunjak gini.

nah di atas hidup enak, ada lagi hidup berkelimpahan. mungkin ke luar negeri sebulan sekali, makan enak dan mahal tiap hariii, barang branded semuanya tanpa kecuali ampe korek kuping juga branded, rumah ada 5 ato bahkan lebih, besar nan mewah semuanya, punya bisnis usaha dimana-mana. ckckckck. siapa yang ga mau sihhh? hehehehe ga munafik ah.

tapi oh tapi, buat saya mapan *yang menurut definisi saya dia atas* itu harus! lalu berusaha untuk sampai ke tahap hidup enak. sampe situ saja rasanya sudah sangaatttt cukup dan bersyukur tiada tara. tapiii, kalo dikasi berkelimpahan *amin oh amin* ya gak nolak juga lah gilelebo. hahahahahaha. sekali lagi, “kalo”! maksudnya itu murni karena rejeki lah. jadi gak ngoyo banting tulang harus sampai ke tahap itu. hehehe. yang paling penting adalah, kita bukan kerja untuk uang semata, tidak diperbudak uang. tapi uang untuk menghidupi kita. dan yang lebih penting dari paling penting tadi mudah-mudahan uang yang dihasilkan itu bisa menjadi berkat, tidak menjadi batu sandungan. ya tidaakkk? amiiinnn hehe.

kata orang hidup itu kejam. benarkah?? hehehehe. maybe i’ll find it out someday. or i have but just haven’t realised it yet? ayo kita bersemangat kalo gituuu! God with us

i love you my super boyfriend! more and more each day. it’s been 3 years. thank you for always there for me whether it’s good or bad. thank God for creating such a person. thank your parents also, especially your mom for giving birth to a very great person of mine. it’s all His grace that we’re still together. and i know, He always will keep us together. God bless us. just keep the faith. i love you. xoxo, hanna.

i suddenly worry about my future, what will it bring me. bunch of questions are spinning around my mind. is it a kind of welcome party to my next-month’s birthday? pathetic huh?! if that so, i must admit that i hate getting older. *sigh*.. seems there are too many things need a very deep and serious thinking.

after all, “do your best and let God do the rest” will always stay to be the one and only key. i know it. but sometimes it’s just soo difficult to have such a mindset.

come on, you can.. i’m cheering up myself. hehe.

banyak yang bilang “yang penting inner beauty daripada penampilan luar”. ihh boong! saya suka sebel sama orang yang bilang gitu. yang bisa bilang kaya gitu pastilah orang tersebut udah cantiiikkk bangeeetttt misalnya kontestan miss sesuatu, trus sok sok merendah aja *mengutip perbincangan dengan pacar*. kalo cantik itu melulu didefinisikan sebagai inner beauty, kenapa sebagian setiap model iklan pasti kulitnya bersih dan cerah, badan ramping, tinggi, rambut bagus, wajah minimal skala 8 dari 10??!!

oke, cantik itu emang relatif tapi pasti ada general opinion bahwa cantik ya yang seperti itu. dan menurut saya, cantik yaudah cantik aja tanpa embel-embel apapun. toh, saya akan tetap mengatakan dengan tulus bahwa seseorang itu cantik kalo emang memiliki wajah cantik walaupun : dia sangat bodoh, dia sangat jahat, dia punya bad habbit, dsb dsb. nah, hal-hal yang sifatnya inner itu akan menunjang ato memberi nilai tambah buat karakter seseorang dan membuat orang tersebut jadi lebih menarik. dan cantik bisa diusahakan kok. apa sih yang gak bisa dilakukan teknologi sekarang?! asalkan ada duit aja, hehe.

orang yang menarik sekalipun pasti akan mengusahakan segala cara untuk membuat dirinya cantik. ke salon, ke dermatologi, perawatan ini itu, beli baju baru, dll. apapun dilakukan demi menunjang penampilan! i mean come on guys, jujur aja lah kita semua (wanita) pengen cantik kan?!! pengen cantik secara harafiah lah. dan pengen dibilang cantik juga kaann?!! hehe. walopun bukan berarti inner beauty ga penting juga.

uhuk uhuk. batuk dulu ahh. hahaha.

seminggu yang lalu lah kira2, di suatu pagi papah tiba-tiba nyeletuk “ira, kalo bisa nikah nya jangan di atas umur 25″. saya yang lagi makan, terbelalak seketika. OH TIDAK. bukan, saya bukan mau dijodohkan kok saudara-saudari. orangtua saya amat sangat demokratis soal jodoh buat anak-anaknya. “yang penting seiman”, katanya. tapi kalo kata mamah “… dan batak”. hahahaha. belum kapok juga ternyata si mamah. hahahaha. piss ah papahku sayang. anyway, knp ya? mungkiiinnn, karena udah mau pensiun, atau udah pengen punya cucu, atau emang udah capek ngurusin saya dan pengen menyerahkan putrinya yang cantik jelita menawan ini pada orang lain secara sah. hahahahaha. tapi wajar sih, sebagian besar orangtua ingin puterinya sudah menikah di umur segitu.

balik lagi ke topik awal. perbincangan singkat tersebut mengusik pikiran saya. hmm, umur 25 tahun? bisa kah saya memenuhi keinginan mereka? 25 tahun berarti 3 tahun lagi dari usia saya sekarang. woowww. dan saya mulai membuat kalkulasi. dengan kenyataan saya sampai saat ini belum lulus, mungkin tahun depan *amin* berarti waktu tersisa 2 tahun untuk mempersiapkan mental, materi, rohani dan apapun itu namanya. belum lagi kalo saya yang mau S2 dulu. kalo segala urusan lancar, amiinnn lagi — berarti taun depan saya bisa S2, selesai 2 tahun dan artinya 1 tahun untuk mempersiapkan segala sesuatu untuk pernikahan itu. Woww. laluuu, menikahlah sayaaaa dan si Mr.Right tersayannggg. halah, hehe.

deg-degan, takuutttt tapi pengeennnn jugaaaa. gimana dong? HUAHUAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

ketakutan itu muncul sebagian besar karena seringnya nonton sinetron, infotainment dan melihat pengalaman hidup orang berumahtangga yang menunjukkan fakta betapa sulitnya membina rumah tangga dan akhirnya banyak yang jatuh. walopun banyak juga yang tetap bertahan sampai kakek nenek.

i agree with this statement … marriage means destiny meets commitment.

komitmen itu sebenernya bukan ke pasangan aja. tapi juga ke sang pemberi takdir, the Almighty God. hmmm, mungkin kalo semua orang berpikir demikian dan benar-benar menghayati artinya, gak bakal ada yang namanya, KDRT, selingkuh-selingkuh ato bahkan sampe perceraian. semogaaa sajaaa saya dan suami saya nantinya bener-bener paham tentang itu. hehe.

and for me, i believe that i’ll get the best in return when i do my best. just keep the faith that He will make the way for every single thing …

it’s kinda late. but late is better than never, right?! well, deep down from my heart i wanna congratulate :

first, my little brother, who passed the final exam of elementary school and also the entry test of junior high school which is the best in town. so … welcome to the high school ! keep on being a good boy, hehe.

second, some of my friends of Chemical Engineering Bandung Institute Technology class of 2004 who did pass the comprehensive examination, means they are all graduated and get the degree, as an engineer. Great job, fellas. i hope i will, sooner. wish me luck anyway.